I undress and crawl in beside her.
Her back is toward me and I close in, conforming my body to hers. I lay a hand on her shoulder. She is still. My hand moves, as if on its own power, down, with the lightest of touches, over her hip, following the curve of her body to her thigh. I reach over, between her legs, and move back up. My hand lies on her breast. We lie like spoons. I can smell rain, but I don't hear anything.
I kiss the back of her neck and try to feel her heartbeat before falling asleep.